“What is ugly? Is it not having designer clothes? Not having your boobs hanging out of your shirt? Or not being able to see your ribs? Not being able to feel your bones in your thighs? Having acne? Having braces or glasses? Really? That’s ugly? Or maybe another word for ‘ugly’ is society. So forget about society and it’s standards, because you are beautiful for who you are.”
So, tonight, out of nowhere, I decided to start lifting weights again. I haven't done any real exercise for eight days since I re-injured my knee badly. It's summer, & already a week has been robbed by my new weakness. My left leg was once the most strongest, coordinated, and depended upon part of me...now I can't even lift 90lbs with it on a leg press individually or easily. I'm only 17, after summer I'll be in my senior yr. I've so far had to give up soccer, rugby, sprinting, & all other sports. Biking & swimming are the only things I'm permitted to do & I can't even pedal with left leg cause it doesn't bend that much. Probably need an ACL or meniscus or both repaired. When can I return to the sports I love most? Maybe never. This is my second time hurting it. I know it'll be a two month recovery to even feel fully stable, but this injury has made me tougher somehow. Somehow I'm stronger. Maybe it's my mind & will power that improved. It just took me a week to get the hang of walking again, now nothing is going to hold me back from what I can do. Burning pain in my arms from lifting will never stop me again. I will become more fit. Right now, tonight, tomorrow. EVERYDAY.